When we present our face to the world people see only what we allow or want them to see. So at 3 am when I am up writing blog post instead of sleeping or at least coming in from the bar, I look like your typical online loser. Of course my profile pictures looks more like Brad Pitt on a holiday (not british just wish I was). How many times can one person check Reality Tea website or listen to “Jar of Hearts” in one night? Apparently 10 (make that 11, 12, 13) times. I would normally call this Fantini disease but she is going by XimoSally now and it does not roll off the tongue as smoothly as I would hope for; XimoSally disease. Nope, I still prefer Fantini disease; however, I digress. So here it is 3 am and I am like a five year old who drank three Coca-Cola sodas in a row. Although, I think I dated myself with that reference; does anyone drink coke anymore? Probably not, they have all moved onto the cooler soft drinks like something calorie less or worse something made with no sugar. I took out the drug references. Me myself, I have never even tried drugs and what is the point of even making references to something I know nothing about. I like my life like I like my ice cream Vanilla. Not Vanilla Ice just Vanilla. Funny side note: I did share a cruise ship with Mr. Ice once in May of 2009. I kind of felt bad for him, I didn’t even want a picture. I mean I take cruises because they are hell of a bang for my broke ass budget but him taking cruises just makes me want to a Save the Rich campaign.
So it is 3 am and I am living out my pipe dreams. In my head I moving to Europe to live the life of a world traveler, apparently in my pipe dreams I prefer poverty just as I do in my real life. 
I was laying awake because I have so much to do tomorrow, although staying up this late is not making me responsible and is slimming my chance of actually achieving said goal tomorrow. I have now hit my 15th play of “Jar of Hearts” and I should probably stop ranting before someone has me committed as crazy. Even though I probably am, who wants to be normal is this insane world anyway. P.S. I am really thankful that Mac’s have spellcheck and highlight the words without me having to hit spellcheck. Now of course this does not account for usage of the wrong word but at my luck people will just think I was drunk writing this, maybe I’ll get an intervention for my non-drinking problem. Wish me luck.
