Okay so I just returned from Mississippi with a non-deployable profile. I cannot tell you how much it stinks and how much of a harsh reality this sets in for me. However, today and tomorrow, Saturday, and Sunday respectively, I will not be facing that reality. Instead, I am going to take today and tomorrow and enjoy my friends, the “new family” as I proclaim them to be. Monday is the day of reckoning and figuring out what this completely crazy mess means.
Most folk here don’t dig to deep, but that is what I want to do in the cliché dig to my soul figure out how I live before I die. I never believed in PTSD until on the plane returning from Mississippi, I went to the bathroom and cried like a baby. I cried for my friends that I missed here and my friends that I was leaving in Mississippi. So that is Monday’s problem but today is the start of the no “reality weekend” and I say come on lets have some fun.
